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The thing that explodes with wishes.



When you were a child, you used to sit on your lawn, sometimes lie on your lawn, play on your lawn, pull grass out with your bare hands, play in the dirt, make mud pies, and most importantly-pull the dried, spore-filled version of cloud white dandelions out with your dainty little fingers and blow...

Make a wish. 

If I could count the number of times that I wished on a star, blew a dandelion into the air, flipped a coin into the fountain, and crossed my fingers behind my back to "make a wish" I'd be pretty secure in my shopping habits-right about now. 

But, as we grow older we start to shy away from the practice. 
We become adults-fully of jade and shade, and reality. 
We lose that part of ourselves that believes in things. 

Better lives, better looks, better, more, bigger, smaller. 

We do everything in life to move. But standing still- doing THAT long enough to believe, remember possibilities, and just exist on this world, breathe for one minute...
One does not simply exist. 

And it brings me to my point. 

Things in our current world are as close to awful as they can get. 
You used to make jokes about the second coming, the end of the world. You stood in line to see Deep Impact, Armageddon, The Day The Earth Stood Still, The Day After Tomorrow, San Andreas. You crammed popcorn into your mouths on your couch for the series finale of The Walking Dead. 

It feels a lot like self-prophesizing in our own way. No? 

But now-this world. The divided world. And US, the good ol' U.S. right in the crux of it. The most advanced, heavily funded, strongest military in the world-sitting on the tip of a stockpile of nuclear weapons at some silo in Colorado...with a literal madman-drunk on power, and hamburder grease- with his finger on the button. 

And all we can do is watch. Like to some scary, surrealistic, dystopian nightmare unfolding on a TV or big screen while we wipe our greasy fingers on the upholstery between scenes. 

And what's worse? It's all so indefensible. 

I can't "clapback" at the guy from Italy calling all Americans; Murdering pigs. 
I can't tell anyone the truth of this. 

Because no one will believe me, anyway. 

But, I'll say it anyway-because I love fill the role of the town crazy. 


We did this to ourselves. 

Yep. There it is. 

Even those of us who say: "I didn't vote for him, you can't blame me!"

Actually-I can. 

Here's why. 

When you were blowing on the dandelion as a child what did you wish for? 

Did you wish for the newest toy, did you wish that your parents would stop fighting, that daddy would quit drinking? Or were you more like me? Did you wish to be skinnier, prettier, smarter? 
Did you wish for something for YOU? 

There it is. 

Greed. 

Self promotion, self-want, self improvement. SELF. 

And when you didn't vote for him-what were you thinking? 
As usual, was the idea to pump up your own ideals? Your own methodology, your own platform, your own values? 

YOU. 

I'd ask the looming question-when did we all become so fucking shortsighted? But, I'd laugh out loud as I asked it, because we always have been. 
There's no end to the self-aggrandizing nature of human beings-going all the way back to the cavemen, and more recently our founding fathers. 
We do things for ourselves. 

Which leads me to the two big words I have been holding on to since I talked about dandelions....

Reactionary politics. 

Be honest...
When was the last time ANY of you actually did the work? 
The research on a candidate-on either side? And not just internet tripe? But... really stopped into your chosen candidates office, or called their line to ask the hard questions about them?
When was the last time that you considered before you pushed that button at the polling kiosk-what this candidate can do for the world? For the good of humanity-and not just YOU? 
When did you decide to vote objectively and not just as a fucking idiotic reaction to what the last guy did? 
How did this last guy/lady-affect ME? 

When was the last time you stopped thinking about YOU, and more about ALL? 

You didn't. 

And BOOM GOES THE DYNAMITE. 

We didn't take a wrong turn. We were headed in the wrong direction from birth. 

I guess the question then becomes-can we change? 

Can we evolve after hundreds of years of auto-fellatio? 

Did whatever higher power you believe in give us the power-in also giving us free will to learn from mistakes and blaze another trail? The one that leads to a better world and not just your own country? 

I am callous, but not quite defeatist in my thinking. 

While my relationship with God or whatever-is my own, I do like to believe that all those dried dandelions didn't go to waste. 

We were given a grand opportunity to evolve and we blew it. 

We all turned inward and blamed it on human nature. 


And while I am not usually sappy, sentimental, or full of successories poster-wisdom, let's just say for realism purposes that those kernels of belief still engrain themselves into even the hardest psyche's....

Dandelions still exist. 

And I guess it's our jobs to have just enough faith to believe. 

The next time you see one, don't stomp over it. 

Use it for good and not evil. 

Wish for humanity. 

Last thought-
We are all cells in the body of humanity-evolve, don't divide. 


-T



 





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